DYING IS NOT AN OPTION – December 31, 2008
HELLO MY FRIENDS,
Bet’cha thought I had disappeared from this earthly sphere, rocketing away to explore other dimensions and spaces of time with my computer in hand? Alas (sigh) not true! Just took a break from my BLOG to try and find a new and improved way of expressing myself. And . . . guess what? It’s still the old . . . and not really . . . improved me, checking in with you all to ring off the old year and smile upon the New Year. A New Year that’s now . . . just hours away, No matter how hard we try and hold back Mother Time folks, she still finds a way go forward, biting at our heels with her persistence tick-tick-tick. I’ve gotta tell you tho, I tried to ignore her, but she just changed the hours, days, and months anyway, so here I am, last minute, hurrying to catch you all up on a half year of silence from me while the calendar still proclaims it’s 2008 in Arizona.
First of all, my family is doing well. No new dramatic happenings! My leukemia is still progressing slowly each month, but holding its own within my lymphatic system. By that I mean . . . I’m not into the chemo cocktail yet to shrink the enlarging masses, and I just might be able to hold off the process through ’09 (if I’m lucky). The nodes are growing larger and bother me with their protrusions and intrusions, but so many people aren’t given a time line for living that I was given, so I’m not complaining. My granddaughter Lauren’s Grandmother Joyce was hospitalized with cancer a few months ago, and died within a week. She had no forewarning that she had cancer at all until she was hospitalized with stomach pain and found her type of cancer had metastasized throughout her body. Now that’s a fast departure from earth, with no time to make plans or think about the process of dying. Her passing made me think about my own diagnosis and the impending prognosis of 6-8 years (two years ago). I feel grateful, rather than depressed that I was given the time to come to some kind of acceptance level and do something with the time I have left.
I’ve done so much accelerated growing of body, mind, and spirit since the original prognosis, and plan to do so much more. Try and imagine finding out you have a week to live like Joyce did? I could never get my head around the dying and acceptance process that quickly. I’m very grateful for my prognosis (with a time-line for planning.)
I would be amiss if I didn’t mention the election of Barack Obama to the Presidency. So far he has done a good job of surrounding himself with seasoned and professional political players. As you all know, I was a Hillary Clinton supporter, and was relieved she was selected to become the new Secretary of State. In my opinion, she more than earned the position and it seems perfect for her!
As for the depressive financial mess the country is enduring, I liken the problem to a huge . . . needy, greedy, seedy soup! The old soup needs to be stirred up, tossed out, and a new soup and new ingredients added. If we look back, (and I do) it’s so obvious what was happening to our country. Many ambitious and “hungry for power and wealth” people (around the world) got caught up in the worship of “money for power” and forgot they were going to have to pay the higher purpose piper someday. I have a philosophy that the love of greed, need and seed (for the love of power) requires embracing one’s existing selfish ego. Ego then becomes an ingrained part of our evil side (we all have an evil side). Then eventually, evil requires a kind of insanity to rein (unchecked) within our souls to continue on its path of wanton destruction. There’s no true explanation for what happened to our economy, other than pure, unadulterated greed for power and wealth by a few men and women who deliberately climbed the ladder toward evil and insanity. Too many innocent people got caught up in the schemes. Then, the whole thing collapsed.
Imagine what we don’t know? What we can’t see and never will see! If what we do know from the unfolding news is hard to swallow, there’s so much more we can’t see at the bottom of the pot! It was time for the whole stew to go bad! The light at the end of the tunnel is so much brighter today than it was a year ago. Evil cannot exist in the wake of so much goodness, and . . as a society and a world, we are inherently a good species of humans. I believe that with all my heart and soul.
Finally, seeking a (just right partner) to fund The Land Of I children’s show has been a timely process in ’08, and I can finally see where the show is going to go into production. The Land Of I had been at the top of my “bucket list” of goals to achieve, and it looks like I may be able to cross that goal and dream of funding off the list in the first month of ’09. I and my production team, will be so gratified to begin the initial production of the first thirteen episodes of The Land Of I television show; I can’t begin to tell you how excited I am. The show’s characters are so much a part of my mind and soul, and I’m grateful that the children of the world will be able to share my characters with my team and me. It’s going to take a lot of time to produce the first thirteen, half-hour episodes, but it will set a template for the future episodes of the show. I’m so grateful to so many people for working so hard to make my dreams a reality (you know who you are.) For those of you who read my BLOG and wish to see my proposal for the show and my books, go to: www.landofi.com and take a look see.
In signing off for 2008, I want to say that I wish only the best for all of you and humanity in general. I want so much for the human species to experience goodness and love in their lives. It may sound Pollyanish, but I’m not trying to fix anyone, only instill in you the courage to change the things around you that you can, and the wisdom and faith to find the focus to continue on with your dreams.